Stop Over at Korea

Even if it has only been hours since I left Singapore, I already miss her. Many of my friends went to the airport to send me off, and it was really touching. Thanks to all my friends who were able to send me. Specially for the Young Once for the sweet scrapbook. Oh, Jocelyn and Jeslyn too! for their scrapbook! The Wong sisters for their creative letters...

Its really cold here in South Korea. Even if we are already in the airport, meaning the possibility of having a heater is high, its still cold. We arrived Korea at around 5am and I remember before we alight, the announcer said that the temperature in Korea at current is 2 degrees. The ironic thing is that it is really sunny, I think shades is a must if you go out.

During the plane ride, I watched the "new moon" and "whip it". Korean airlines is really nice. When I saw the stewardess, I remembered boys over flowers. I also read the scrapbooks that my friends gave me. You know what? I'm seriously bored right now and I don't know what else I can do... Hmmmmm... I think I'll upload the pictures, then sleep for a while, then come back and online. No one is exactly online at a time like this... If you know what I mean...

Writing from Korea,

abimere

Saturday

My twins, Jocelyn and Jeslyn, came to my house to visit me today. It was fun and exciting as we have not seen each other for quite a while now. It has been a pleasure for me to ask them to come to my place. I sang songs for them and they cried right after the first song I sang to them. I'm really going to miss the two of them. I have never been so close to any juniors like them. They are like sisters to me...

Anyway, Can you imagine? I'm leaving tomorrow! Six days ago I was writing to you about how many more days I get to spend here. I can't believe its that fast... I don't think I'm ready...

I have to say something... I want to say... Something... But I don't know how...

abimere...

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Friday

Today is my eldest sister's birthday. It was really fun because some of my closest friends from church came to our house to surprise us with a "despedida". I wasn't really expecting anything for this day, but it happened. It was sad to say goodbye, specially for me. I got so attached to them that it is so hard to de-attach myself from them. They have been really good friends and they have taught me many things about life... I cried the for the last 30 minutes (I think) of the party. I was actually holding back tears from the beginning, because of many reasons that are running through my head. I can't explain much or maybe just open up because I don't know how to react to everything that surrounds me. But I thank everyone who made the party a memorable one. Thanks guys!

abimere

I hope I could say everything that I want to say. I hope I could talk and just say everything. But how? Are you still there?

Thursday

My sister and I went out with the Gagarin brothers today. Normil initiated a hangout with my sister before we actually go to Canada on Sunday. I had fun hanging out with them again. Its really sad to think about the fact that it maybe the last time we would see each other again for quite a long time. The joking time was really hilarious. The King Kong joke and specially the Superman joke.

I have to be honest to myself though. I felt something was missing. I know the reason why, but I don't have the confidence to say it out loud in here...

I have to end here. I don't want to corrupt this blog with my emotional self...

abimere

Wednesday

Today was a though day. Even though I did pretty much nothing at home, I feel really tired because of the emotion I feel inside me. Its a mixed emotion. Its sad because I can't even explain to myself why I'm acting and feeling this way. I feel trapped. Not by the people around me, but by myself. I don't understand, why I don't understand me... Okay, I'm not making any sense any more. I hope I could talk, smile, laugh or even enjoy the rest of my time here... But... Sadly, I'm not. I know that everything that is happening to me now, is a result, or maybe even consequences, of the decisions that I made in the past... Why am I feeling like this?

I'm going to end by saying this... I might not know how to explain how I feel right now, but I believe that there is a reason for everything. I believe that there is a purpose for everything. Maybe this is part of growing up. Maybe, a way for me to learn something from. I don't know... I'm only 17... Even if I'm sure of some things... It might not matter... It just is...

abimere

Tuesday

Another day has passed and that means five more days until my departure. My left eye is really swollen and it looks as if like someone punched my eye. I went to the doctor yesterday and the doctor told me that I had an early stage of eyelid infection. I just hope that my eye would get healed soon because its really very painful...

abimere

Monday

I have exactly 6 more days of stay here in Singapore. I have decided to start a new blog so I could write about all my experiences. It's so weird. I am never out of words, but when I start writing I don't seem to know what to write and even if I already have something in mind, I don't know how to put it into words...

Maybe I should stop here. I don't want to end up saying non-sense in this whole post.

abimere