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It's been really hard for me the past few months since school started. I'm in a full day school, one night class (e-learning), part-time job and community involvement. Basically, my schedule has been crazy!!! I don't even have time for myself now and I find that I haven't been connecting with the people around me. Right now, I'm really looking all hope. The only reason to why I'm surviving is through thinking of the thought that "someday..." I hope that that inspiration won't give up on me this time...

I can't sleep... Again. I can't stop thinking about things in my past. When we make certain important decisions in life, somehow it's hard not to go back. If you decide you want to do something to better yourself, sometimes circumstances just leads you back to thinking how you miss a particular part of the life that you have just decided to leave. That's how I feel now... I'm lost in my own thought and decisions.

I want to be the best that I can be. I can't turn back from my goal. I don't want to regret anything that I will be deciding on the future. In my head, I know what I SHOULD be doing... But... what about my heart? I realised in these past months that I'm starting to neglect that part of me. Which is sad. I never had problems with following my heart. I have always been doing that... Until now.

Lord Jesus, help me get through all these. I'm tired of procrastinating about decisions I make to better myself. I'm tired of hurting and crying my heart out. I know that you truly know I how feel and think inside of me. Help me... Heal my broken heart Lord. I need you, Jesus.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Abimere

"Someday... We'll see each other again... But when that time comes... We'll be different for the better. Better for each other."