Stay True to Yourself

Never feel afraid to stay true to yourself... because Jesus loves you just the way you are!

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It's been really hard for me the past few months since school started. I'm in a full day school, one night class (e-learning), part-time job and community involvement. Basically, my schedule has been crazy!!! I don't even have time for myself now and I find that I haven't been connecting with the people around me. Right now, I'm really looking all hope. The only reason to why I'm surviving is through thinking of the thought that "someday..." I hope that that inspiration won't give up on me this time...

I can't sleep... Again. I can't stop thinking about things in my past. When we make certain important decisions in life, somehow it's hard not to go back. If you decide you want to do something to better yourself, sometimes circumstances just leads you back to thinking how you miss a particular part of the life that you have just decided to leave. That's how I feel now... I'm lost in my own thought and decisions.

I want to be the best that I can be. I can't turn back from my goal. I don't want to regret anything that I will be deciding on the future. In my head, I know what I SHOULD be doing... But... what about my heart? I realised in these past months that I'm starting to neglect that part of me. Which is sad. I never had problems with following my heart. I have always been doing that... Until now.

Lord Jesus, help me get through all these. I'm tired of procrastinating about decisions I make to better myself. I'm tired of hurting and crying my heart out. I know that you truly know I how feel and think inside of me. Help me... Heal my broken heart Lord. I need you, Jesus.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Abimere

"Someday... We'll see each other again... But when that time comes... We'll be different for the better. Better for each other."

Rebukes.

It has been quite a while since I posted anything here. I'm just going to share to you about how the previous days have gone by and how God has been guiding me, showing me, blessing me and rebuking me in some things in my mind.

My first week at work was a blast. There were so many things that I learned. I learned to persevere through difficulties... I learned to engage with people from different age groups... I learned to be patient... Trust me, there were so many more things I learned, but by the time I finished everything that I have learned, you would have already been bored. :D But I really thank God for all the blessings He blessed me with. I was also given an opportunity to tutor a school mate. I thank God for giving me the knowledge and perseverance in managing my work, school and tutoring...

Anyway, lets get on with other topics... I came across this verse in Habakkuk 1:13. It says "Your eyes are too pure to look on evil; you cannot tolerate wrong. Why then do you tolerate the treacherous? Why are you silent while the wicked swallow up those more righteous than themselves?" Isn't this verse just an amazing rebuke to each of us? There are many times in our lives when we feel so afraid of what other people might say about us when we stand up for what is right, so we just stay silent. God has reminded me in this verse not to hide my lamp under a bowl, but instead let the light on my lamp shine upon others who is in the dark. There is a saying that "If you can't beat them, join them..." maybe the problem is we should change this mentality. Instead we should say that.. if you can't beat them and you know that they are doing something wrong, never join them... Instead pray for them, for GOD to open up their hearts and minds and lead them to what is right. Share GOD's love to others.

God loves you,

abimere

The Day It All Happened

Today (okay maybe yesterday since its pass 12am) was my final exam - drama. It was also the day I first felt tremor or earthquake. It was also the very first time I actually cut a real person's hair - my brother. It was also the first time I got cut by scissors in the hand.

Tomorrow will be my job training and I can't wait! I wonder what's in store for me?... I hope everything will turn out okay. This day was really overwhelming as I feel as if like everything is happening all at the same time.

During drama exam, we were asked to act out the play "Us and Them" and put our own twist and personality to it. It was really awesome working on something like that. I learned so much things... Though at first never really thought I would... But, I did. My group was the first group to go up and present our piece and I was totally scared as it was my very first drama exam. I don't know what I am expected of. All I did was focus, remember my lines, stay calmed and do my best. Like I always say... "If you do your best, God will do the rest!" I really feel relieved that my group did pretty well on the exam, considering not having enough practice time. Praise God for His mercy and kindness!

I cut my brother's hair just now, I took around an hour to do everything. I would say I did a pretty good job! (that is what I think by the way... hehe) At least it looks neater now. Well the problem is, I cut my left hand's skin. I hate it when I get cuts... But this time around, I think it was worth it. At least I get to cut my brother's hair. Surprisingly, he likes it!

At around 1:41pm, an earthquake/tremor hit Quebec and Ontario (around 5.5). My sister and I got so scared. It was really a strong tremor. The tables were shaking!!! I was lying down on the sofa and I felt like the ceiling was moving. It really freaked me out. Luckily, no one got hurt. But to think about it again, its just like what the Bible says. The Lord is coming...

You Will Never Know What He Has In Store For You!

I jut woke up and I found out the greatest news that my sister has for me. I can't wait to share it with you guys! My sister's application to University of Toronto was accepted! I'm so happy for her. Truly we will never know what God has in store for us!

This past few days, God has been reminding me to keep believing in His promises for me. Today, he showed me an example of his work. Now I got stronger to believe in Him more. I know He has something in store for me too! I just have to have faith in Him and wait for the right time, right place, right situation. Praise be to our ONE and ONLY GOD!!!

Psalm 69:30 - I will praise God's name in song and glorify him with thanksgiving.

I pray that you are encouraged by this. Keep believing in Him. He has a plan and a purpose for you! GOD bless each and everyone of you...

abimere

God Is Good All The Time

Its been a while since a posted something here. This past days or lets just say weeks has been a roller coaster ride for me. There are a points where I feel like I'm on top of the world! The sad part is not realising (feeling as if like I'm till up there) I'm about to hit the lowest point in my life. I won't this roller coaster ride has been fun for me and that it all excitement and happiness throughout the ride. There were times when all I could do is freak out. But what can I do right? I decided to ride this roller coaster. There is no turning back now. All I could do is to make the best out of it... If you didn't get what I just said, I know someday, somehow you will. It's part of growing up...

Let's talk about the sad things first, so I won't be able to depress you guys later. Well, I feel really down lately because of too much things going on my head. I can't really specifically say them all, but all I could say is I feel like everything about me is about to fall apart - physically, emotionally psychologically. I'm drained out. That's all I could say. I don't even want to talk about this any more. I don't want dig things in here. So let's just talk about good things in this blog.

I finally got a job now. I thank GOD for personally using the life of my cousin and her boyfriend. Their whole have been an instrument of blessing not only to me but to my whole family. My family have been praying to our One and Only True God for jobs. Now we have jobs. I would be able to help my parents now, even in a small way. Thank you God for your provision.

So, exams are coming and so is the summer vacation.I'm not really planning on taking a vacation as I want to graduate as soon as I can. I'm going for summer school in the morning and work at night. I know its going to be a really hectic schedule, but I know that God will help me through it all. There is a purpose why I am here and so I'm not going to waste it.

I'm going to leave you guys with a verse to ponder on. If you feel down at times, just like me, do not forget that God is with his people. He will always be there even if at times you may not know. He is still there. You just have to keep on searching...

Psalm 23:4 - Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

abimere